Well, what can I say? She was beautiful. She was intelligent. She was part of the esoteric circles which tend to set me at a distance from most of society. She and I shared so many opinions and experiences. There was this natural attraction I've never experienced before. What could possibly go wrong?

Oh, I know. How about cyclical 'trust issues', in which she doesn't know me well enough to trust me and doesn't trust me enough to get to know me better? That would work.

I invested time, emotional energy and considerable amounts of patience and my own trust into building something good, and in the end she was only leading me on. (edit: re-written to preserve appearance of sanity) I am so tired of all the things I need in my life being snatched away apparently without reason or adequate notice. Yes, I know life isn't fair, but I used to like believing that it was unfair pretty much in equal balance for everyone, not so damned lumpy.